Embrace Change.

We should be grateful for every waking day, for every chance we get to open our eyes because it is another chance we get to spend with the people we love.

But this morning it was different, I know waking up with tears in my eyes is wrong, but I can't help it. I tried to reach for my phone, like I always do whenever I wake up but I realized things are different now, and whether I like it or not, I need to embrace the change that is taking place in my life right now.

Changes.

From time to time I'll have to encounter them. Many times a year. People, they come and go. and when they do, they create an impact in my life. In many ways, they change me. Positively, negatively, unknowingly, they change me. There are changes that you dont really feel, you just wake up one day and find out your life was changed.

While there are changes that you really feel deep in your soul, in your heart, in your body, and sometimes, these kind of transformation comes with pain. And pain is something that is felt more, than happiness. I feel it linger, in my heart it is there. In my heart there is chaos. Just like a freshly wounded knee, it is bleeding, and throbbing. It makes me scared. In ways I dont understand, they fear the hell out of me. Just when i started to create future plans, just when i thought everything will be okay, and everything will go smoothly, just when i started to DREAM BIG, things have gone out of the way.

I trust in God's plan for me. I know there is a reason behind all these, there is a reason why in the middle of dreaming big things, my life had taken a sudden turn. No one can resist change. I cant dream and yet prevent my dream from changing me. If i dream big then I should embrace big changes. It might be difficult at first, but its much more better, than to give up my dream and stay where I am.

Love, This is a risk. but it will transform us in ways that is best for us. I will take this risk. I will be comfortable in chaos. My essence is not my form. When you know who you really are, what you really want, you can be comfortable amidst chaos. When in doubt, I'll keep my faith. Only love can change us. and it is my dream of love that will push me to grow.

Thank you Lord. Please guide me.